Its only Tuesday and already I am so overwhelmed and over this week. I am stuck worried about these two exams I have, I have already cried my eyes off in front on my boss and am on the verge of another break down. I find myself wishing there were more hours in the day to do all that I need to do. To sum it up I am hot mess right now and just want to lay in my bed all day, cry, eat, and watch Netflix. I just don’t feel like ‘doing life’ right now. Yeah, I know how that sounds. To top it off, I realize that though I have still been praying, it has only been out of routine and repetition. I am not really spending time with God. So just a moment ago, I took a moment. A moment from everything. I played my worship music and opened my bible and began reading Luke 10. And in Luke 10, as Jesus and his disciples are traveling they come to a village where a woman, Martha, invited Him into her home. (Can you imagine having the one and only savior in your home!!!) Anyway, Martha had a sister named Mary and as Martha was running around and distracted by everything she felt she had to do to and wasn’t really paying attention to Jesus being there. All the while Mary just sat at the feet of Jesus and listened to Him. Upset, Martha ask Jesus to tell Mary to come and help her so that she wasn’t doing all the work herself. Jesus replies to her, simply: “Martha, you are worried and upset about many things but few of those things are needed but one. Mary, your sister, has chosen what is better and it will not be taken from away from her!” Do you see that? Martha is here worrying but Mary is wise enough to see that Jesus is here and at His feet is where she should be!!
As I finished reading this, I realized that I am Martha right now! I am here crying, worrying about these exams, stressed and all the above. I am not trusting God right now. Instead of sitting at the Lord’s feet, listening to Him, giving all my worries to Him; just as Mary was doing, I am preoccupied. After reading that I knew that I was doing the wrong thing and maybe today many of you are also being Martha instead of Mary. So I encourage you to just stop. Take a moment and get on your knees and sincerely lay all of your burdens, worries and heartaches at the feet of the Lord and let them go and see what trusting God can do!
Be blessed, XOXOXO